After 6 semesters, I'm finally done with poly life. One more week for UT3 and it's adios for me. I dunno whether to be happy, sad or whatever. Kinda like mixed feelings when you're graduating. Gonna miss some of the guys though.
Gonna start working till Mr. National Service comes knocking at my door. Hopefully by then I'll have some savings for myself. NAPFA? Forget it, I prefer to go in 2 months earlier. It's also kinda like mixed feelings when you're going NS very soon. Gonna miss my teenage life though.
My relationship's kinda like mixed feelings too. I'm happy, sad, confused and whatever. I dunno, all the time we're building the walls around us, making this chemistry stronger. Telling and assuring each other "nothing can break us apart". But just one fly comes by and touch these walls a little bit, the whole building just collapse? Come on, dear. What's the problem? You say I keep doing this? I beg to differ. I know you're hurt and I try to fix it but it's like a breeze for you to suddenly turn to a widow, ain't it? How easy it is, till when this is gonna keep up, what are you hinting to me are just some of the questions that happens to pop out. I don't understand it, when having "heart-to-heart" talks all problems can be solved easily and the world remains beautiful. But when shit just happens the whole world just crumbles in between me and you?
You know I love you. You told me I've assured you. Period. It's been years now, why are we still like tissue? Easily broken, easily stained? So can I assume that all those messages are just words typed down just to make me feel good? And all those promises are as empty as what I thought they would be? What's your agenda here? I'm pretty lost from the beginning.
Humans.
Love-d,
Jed
